For most of my life I have been told, “you can’t possibly think that”, “you can’t possibly feel that”, “no one else has ever said that” or just recieved strange non comprehending looks.
So when my partner of 20 years also told me I could not be feeling what I was feeling, and would not listen to my insistence that I was, it created such a deep rift in the fabric of the relationship that repair may well be impossible.
That was over three years ago and we are now separated and the years in between have been years of profound pain, deep learning and transformation.
This transformation is far from over and this year is a year in waiting, waiting for the next place I will live to emerge, for my new lifestyle to take shape, to see who I will be once the dust settles.
This blog is to document some of the transition, the ways I deal with the challenges, the pain and the joy. I will use images and writing to stay in gratitude as I walk this path.
I hope looking back on this time five years hence I will smile and think I was just on a path to a more authentic life.
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